just cAnt bElieVe tHat i miSs U

i miss u even u r just rite beside me..
i miss u even so much for no reason..
i cant believe i get so jealous when u looking at other gurlz..
i cant believe i get so jeolous when u talking to other gurlz
i cant believe i just tears when i get so jealous..


i promise to myself that i will let u go..but i just cant..
coz i really love u so much..no one going to understand what im going through now..
only GOD know me well n understand what im going through..
so cant blame others for not understand what i feel..
coz they r not even me..
thatz why i never blame them for talking useless thing to me..
bcoz we r different..who going to understand a gurl that have a bad past..
WHO going to understand n know how to help u in all this..is all in ur hand..no one going to help u..
u got no rite to stop others to love others but not u..
no matter how jealous i am..did he going to know if i din told him?
the answer is NO!!
and he is not going to understand how i feel like why he is not ready for all this..and why he choose her to talk with but not u..bcoz u r not the one or what??
he also not going to ask how r u or how is ur day..he also not going to give u a msg or a call.if u din do so..
i HATE to give now..from NOW!!no more giving. no more pouring..
i'm just so tired of it!!no one going to do all this for me..
i just want to ignore what she said..coz she donno i really in love with HIM..she keep think that i lack of frenz love or anythg..i know myself well than her...>.<